December: the most exciting month of the year, finally came! This is the month where many of us will reminisce about the ups and downs of 2019. Christmas shopping (the most expensive part of the holidays) will be everywhere. Children will be sitting on Santa’s lap to tell him what they want for Christmas. The only thing missing here (in Fayetteville) is snow. Oh how I miss watching blizzards from my bedroom window 😊
Jessica is ecstatic about this coming Christmas. I’m ecstatic about Christmas being over with on December 26 at 12 AM. She has a written lists of items she wants for Christmas. I on the other hand, believe I already have the gift I have longed for years.
You see, since 2011, I have been battling Clinical Depression. Unfortunately, many on the Autism Spectrum have this. Since then, I’ve been taking medication in order to keeps my symptoms at bay. Fortunately, I have been able to work and finish school. However, I still lacked that feeling of joy. Something I literally see flowing out of Jessica every time I see her. I was considered bubbly by my peers no doubt. But, on the inside, I felt defeat, loss, and hopelessness. I felt useless.
