But he said to me, ”My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NIV

Over the past three to four months, I have fallen in love with being outdoors. Doing routine walks outside really reaps its benefits. I even started going outside during lunch break. The more often I go outdoors, the more I crave the fresh air. As good as this sounds, I have been struggling with something for as long as I can remember. I have a condition called Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). SAD is a form of depression that happens at the same time yearly. This is an enormous hurdle for me because I have been struggling with Major Depression for half of my life. My symptoms are moderate in the spring, summer and fall. In the winter however, a strong amount of agony overtakes me.

I have been receiving help since 2011. I was prescribed anti depressants and it’s going very well. It helps me move forward with my day and my thoughts of suicide have subsided. However, I still find myself feeling blue from time to time, especially around this time of year.

There is some good news: Going outside on nice sunny days can mitigate depressed mood. This is the number one reason why I enjoy the outdoors. Whenever I am outside and the sun hits my face, happy thoughts run through me. For example, one day I was departing a bus stop to go to the library. The temperature was in the mid 50’s, but the sun was out. As I was approaching the library, I was saying to myself, ”I feel like a butterfly.” Odd I know that, but it was the first thought that came.

I am sharing this because I know that there are millions of people out here struggling with SAD or Depression. I know that there are people who are feeling alone with this terrible mental illness. I know that from experience. My hope is to inspire one person out of the millions to get help first and foremost. The sunshine is an incredible bonus for those looking for a mood booster. Help is a necessity if it’s truly needed. You do not have to live as a hostage to your mental health. Fear is a common thing, but do not let it stand in your way. Time within the flesh is of the essence my friends. Psalm 27:1 NIV says, ” The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?

The journey to healing will take time and dedication, but it will be worthwhile!

He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he is delighted in me.” Psalm 18:19 NIV

2 responses to “SAD”

  1. Thanks for this post. I am 49 and waiting for an evaluation for ASD. I have been battling depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. I consider medication and therapy as a gift from God.


    • Thanks for taking the time to read this. Medication and therapy are lifesavers in the mental health community! I would like to wish you the best on your ASD evaluation. God will be there every step of the way. Remember: if you do have ASD, that’s okay 🙂It will be the missing puzzle piece you have been waiting for. Also, you have someone (me) to turn to for advice or questions you may have.


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