An Unique Mind

New Niche

March 22nd, 2022

Bullying is a new niche that I will be discussing. I have decided to talk about this topic because I have experienced this all throughout my school years, including college. This is also a second factor (after autism) to my past issues with self acceptance, thoughts of suicide (currently seeking treatment), and discomfort with being around people. The scars from being bullied forever stay with you, no matter how much time passes by. They’re like open wounds that cannot be fully healed, only managed.

As much as my experiences with bullying hurt, I am aware that there are those who have it far worst than me. Because of this, I have come to peace with my past and forgiven those who bullied me. Today, my heart aches for the victims who are now adults and the young victims in school getting bullied on the daily. If only a solution to this problem was made. The world would be a much better place if something is done about bullying. I know that writing about bullying will not solve the issue, but it can make those who are bullying aware of the damage they are doing to their victims. Maybe this will urge them to rethink their actions and stop bullying altogether.

THE NOVEL

Spoiler alert: this will be an issue that will play a role on the novel I am currently working on. This excites me even more! Adding this issue to my novel will make my readers aware of how devastating this issue is, especially to students with special needs. Their physical and/or mental limitations make it harder for them to deal with this. This is such a common problem in school and the workplace that it compelled me to add a bully (or bullies) to my story. Other than autism awareness, another hope is to spread awareness the effects bullying has on all children if no action is taken.

I have to say this. I know it’s very uneasy seeing this, but bullying is very dangerous. It may look harmless in some cases, but all cases of bullying are equally dangerous. This is another reason why I have decided to choose bullying as a second niche. It cannot be thrown under the rug. The issue cannot be diluted. If children in school have to put up with their bullies on a daily basis, then this should be no problem to talk about. Am I right?

If this encourages one parent of a victim to reach out for help or one parent of a bully to do something about their child’s dangerous deeds, that would be incredible!

I conclude that there will be a third niche I will be bringing to my blog. I will discuss it when the time is right. The bullying niche needs time to be fitted into my blog 🙂 Until then, catch you all later!
Not Easy, But Worth It

February 15th, 2022

Becoming more public about my experiences as an autistic woman is honestly the best decision I have ever made in my 33 years of living. I would not trade it in for nothing, not even a million dollars. I am constantly getting support from parents of autistic children and it’s absolutely incredible. Nothing but joy overtakes me, knowing that sharing my stories can actually inspire someone else.

There’s a sag though. It’s not as easy as it looks.

As I am speaking more openly about Autism and being on the spectrum, I am quickly noticing the emotional toll it is taking on me. Whenever a parent of an autistic child reaches out to me, I feel like my 10 years old self all over again. The reminders of my childhood and the challenges I faced overtake me. In my heart, I think I discovered why there are not many autistic adults that are willing to discuss their past experiences. It’s not an easy feat being an autistic child. Being reminded of that in adulthood is heartbreaking. You so desperately want to be that beacon of hope for autistic children everywhere. Meanwhile, the awareness of the challenges these angels will face tears my heart out. Part of me wants to jump in and rescue them from their future hardships. I know that’s not possible. If only it was.

However, there is still good within all of this. Instead of holding onto my personal struggles as an autistic adult, I have decided to share my experiences in hopes of inspiring autistic children and their families. I want them to grow up with a positive perspective on life, even though there’s a bumpy road ahead of them. I am walking that bumpy road ever day, but getting too caught up on the negatives about autism only makes living with the disability harder. Yes, it’s a tough thing to discuss personal challenges. But, knowing that there are children who will face similar challenges is tougher.

For those who are concerned about me:

As far as a coping mechanism goes, journaling is part of my writing routine. It keeps me sane. So I do have a healthy outlet if steam has to be let out. Also, I am blessed to have a family who I can turn to for anything. Lastly, I am continuing medical treatment for severe depression and anxiety (commonalities in autistic adults). So no worries. I am okay 🙂

I will continue what I started, even though it’s very difficult. It was a calling that was put on my heart. The uncertainty as to where this leads scares me to death, but I will never know where this will lead if I stop. The journey must continue…

New Niche

Not Easy, But Worth It